This is it, we are actually doing this. We have already said our good byes to Eric's family and most of our friends. We will do more visiting tonight and come Monday morning we officially hit the road. As I sit here with a hangover from last nights farewell festivities, I am probably a mixture of emotions. I
think I feel excited, sad, anxious, hopeful, and straight up terrified. I am careful to say 'I think' I feel these things, because if I am completely honest, I am working hard to block out all of these emotions. Sometimes I don't have to try very hard at all to block out what I'm feeling. Completely changing your life is a very busy kind of work. You have very little time to actually think about what you're doing, you just do it. This is lucky, we have been so busy getting thing done for the most part we haven't had time to get scared.
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We've done a lot so far |
I keep thinking its like that time I jumped into the ocean off at 30ft rocky cliff... actually I did it like 6 times. They don't call it a leap of faith for nothing. You just have to jump. You can't sit there thinking about how
scared you are.
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I was mid air before my brain realized my legs had taken the leap. |
Or maybe its like what my fathers says about adventure and life. He used to fly aerobatic airplanes, and says to be a
good pilot you can't think about your fear. You have to keep flying no matter what. You
can't take your hands off the controls when things get scary. You can be scared later. Like when its over you can think "damn that was close".
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The Citabria is the type of plane my dad flew, also what my oldest sister is named after. |
There have been times my emotions have crept up on me though. Sometimes in the quiet as I'm trying to fall asleep or in that moment of stillness just after I've completed a task. Then I'll spend hours making notes and lists. The other day I worked myself into a tizzy adding up exactly how much money I expect to have left once we get to San Francisco. That's when I had to remind myself... Whats actually the worst that can happen? We run out of money?
We are capable, we can make more. We get a flat tire, break down, get lost?
We are capable, we can fix it. (Plus think of the great stories/blog material that will be ;)
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Blonde and Breado can do it! ;) |
Yes, I am probably scared and I could probably be worrying about a lot of things right now. I could worry about money. I could worry about leaving my family and our business. I could worry about life on the road or how I'm going stay fit while we travel. But in the words of Miss Scarlett O'Hara "I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow."
So my friends, we're off! We love you and we cannot wait to share this experience with you all. If you haven't checked it out in a while, go take a look at our map! We've updated our route (Texas is out, but GA and TN are in). It's still just a rough estimate of where we will go, so if y'all have suggestions post them!
First stop... Jacksonville, FL! We're going to help my baby sister move into her first apartment!